Acts 26:9
I verily thought with myself, that I ought to do many things contrary to the name of Jesus of Nazareth.
Acts 26:9 (KJV)
Context
Paul speaks these words while defending himself before King Agrippa. He is not making excuses; he is giving an honest account of his past. Before meeting Christ, Paul—then known as Saul—was a fervent persecutor of the church. His opposition to Jesus was not casual; it was a deep, settled conviction of his own conscience.
Meaning
The phrase “verily thought with myself” shows that Paul’s hostility was sincere. He genuinely believed he ought to do many things contrary to the name of Jesus of Nazareth. The Greek text emphasizes that this was his personal judgment, a matter of conscience. Yet sincerity does not make error harmless. Paul’s confession reveals that a person can be completely wrong while being completely convinced. The name “Jesus of Nazareth” points to Jesus in His humble human origin, which was a stumbling block to many.
Biblical connections
Paul’s transformation on the road to Damascus turned this zealous opponent into a devoted apostle. His encounter with the risen Christ showed him that his sincere conviction had been tragically misguided. The same grace that reached Paul can reach anyone, no matter how hardened their heart.
Application
The power of God’s grace: Paul’s conversion shows that no one is beyond redemption. God can change even the most determined enemy of the gospel.
The danger of misguided zeal: Being passionate about a cause does not make it right. We must seek truth and wisdom, not just intensity.
The importance of humility: Paul openly admitted his past ignorance and wrongdoing. His example encourages us to acknowledge our own mistakes and seek forgiveness and growth.
Reflection
Paul’s words challenge us to examine our own convictions. Are we willing to admit when we are wrong? Do we hold our beliefs with humility, open to correction? Paul’s life reminds us that God’s grace can redirect even the most sincere but mistaken zeal into faithful service.
